Find A Love To Call Your Own.

Honest Hearts Will Be Corrupted.


Another Post About You

I don’t know if my memory is skewed or if things were really that way but I can finally be myself again. 

My family has told me I am finally back.

My friends tell me I am so much happier and fun. 

My question is why couldn’t I act like myself around you? Why did I have to act that way? Why did I turn into a different person when I was with you?

I catch myself acting a certain way and thinking “Wow, you didn’t like this side of me. You wanted me to calm down or stop being childish.”

I am starting to say “Sorry” a lot less. I never knew all the things I did I was self conscious about because I was with you.

I can be myself again. 

I had a dream I flew back North and the plane went down before we hit New York. You didn’t come to the funeral. I hope you’d come to the funeral. [x]

Nights like these just make me think about everything. Am I a completely different person a year later? For better or for worse?
What is going on right now?



find someone
who knows
you’re sad
just by the change
of tone in your

be with someone
who loves the
feature that
you hate the most

fall inlove with
someone who
looks at you and
knows they don’t
want anyone else


(via sirensandstarlets)


I need to get my life together.

I am seriously lost right now. Things are better and yet worse than ever. I have no control. I am constantly frustrated and I am tired of not being good enough. 

I can’t do it all. I am running myself to the ground. 

To top it all off I am filled with so many regrets and I am so damn tired of myself. She is right. I am a selfish, abusive person. You were right, I am all the things she calls me. 

And the scariest part is I don’t know if I can change me. 

Here is my meltdown and reality check for time being. Let’s see how long I can roll with it.